After dithering for months about whether I should start my own journey thread or not, recent events indicated that yes, yes, I should. So. And now I've also got such a nice little introduction because thanks to aforementioned events, I started noticing a pattern in how I (currently) approach this inner journey.
First step is curiousity. Not noseyness, but inquisitiveness. (Does that word exist?) That's something I took with me from the New Year Retreat and the True Self exploration we did; curiosity is such a strong feature of my true self I felt. And in the months since increasingly I noticed that if I approach things from this angle – what would happen if I pushed this button? - I'm not scared at all to start poking at Big Stuff.
So, something sparks in my subconscious, conciousness goes: „What would happen if I did this?“, and what happens is usually me pulling the rug out from underneath my feet. I then spend the next few days feeling horrible and hiding in a book while keeping half an eye on the horribleness, then find my balance again, look around, notice the different view, like, things I hadn't seen before, and how other things are so much clearer from here, while other things I can't see at all anymore. That's usually the point where I start crying and flailing and going oh my God, I can't with the awesomeness of the Universe and wishing there was somebody I could share this awesomeness with.
Aren't you all lucky.