Repetitive Dream Theme

Okay. Some things cannot be ignored.

So, during the past couple of months, I had three dreams with a very similar content: sea waves coming towards me, scaring me and 2 of them shaking me! I have recorded them in a dream journal so here they are in some detail:

The first one, I remember being at the sea shore and seeing this massive wave coming towards me. The wave shook a long vehicle (bus?) with four open doors, that was in the sea. My first reaction from the shore was to go backwards and into a 'warehouse' to seek for protection, and I stood behind a pillar to protect myself. After a while, I realised that if the bus was to come towards me, it would not hit me but it would keep me trapped in the warehouse. Soon, the water reached me, and I started flying upwards trying to escape- finding jail bars in front of me that made it difficult to escape... (for some reason I think these bars represent my previous relationship)

The second dream (approximately a month ago) was very similar. This time, I was inside a vehicle in the sea. I could see the waves from the window and started to get worried. Suddenly a big wave comes and shakes the vehicle and me inside. I saw someone who was sleeping inside the vehicle waking up due to the wave, and me opening a side window to get away and save myself.

The third dream, was two days ago. I was parked somewhere with friends and it was time to leave. The other car started its journey but I noticed that I didn't have the keys of my car. I knew where I had left them and went there. When I arrived there- I found myself flying above the sea. It was dark. In the 'middle' of the sea, were some people I knew, so I extended my hands and started flying towards them. However, my accuracy was not good. I could not navigate /control my direction very well- I was getting carried away from my target towards the far end of the 'scene'. Then, I found myself in the midst of a crazy, chaotic, huge storm! There was water everywhere carrying me with a huge force. I was terrified. There was nothing I could do- but surrender. Which I did. Immediately, I found myself in a parking, facing a white car / 'vehicle'. This vehicle changed/was changing form, from one moment to the next. Then I woke up scared and shocked (not from the final scene).

I had some insights while re-writing these dreams:
e.g., 'getting carried away' has been ongoing for months now since I find myself not doing as much work as I would want, and avoiding it by engaging in habitual-autoamtic patterns... Very synchronistic, that among the work I am avoiding is my dissertation- which includes a section on Experiential Avoidance... Mirror in my face! :)

Exploring further, when I talked with my therapist and spiritual coach months ago, he identified a blind spot of mine. That I was afraid to put the effort because I was scared of putting the effort, and still not being enough. And this was disguised as a lack of motivation. But I could also feel the fear. And I still do.

I don't know how to interpret this recurring pattern of the sea-storm-shaking and the vehicles...

And now I find myself frightened, my heart is beating fast.... now that I remembered the dreams, especially the third one which was the most frightening of them all.

Any reflections on how to interpret these dreams and work with them would be really appreciated.

Thanks a lot.

Alex :)

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Hi Alexandros - interesting dreams. When I interpret them, I simply open to higher mind and let the knowings flow. But this is MY interpretation of some key points - therefore always test the viewpoints through your own inner compass.

You said...

    "The first one, I remember being at the sea shore and seeing this massive wave coming towards me. The wave shook a long vehicle (bus?) with four open doors, that was in the sea.

The four doors are referring to the fourth density - the wave is a massive one through the plane of karma - because the karmic plane is currently being churned up. The bus probably refers to a group of people - those that are actually beginning to explore karma.

You said...

    "I realised that if the bus was to come towards me, it would not hit me but it would keep me trapped in the warehouse."

Your karma keeps you trapped in the old reality - until you've processed it.

You said...

    "Suddenly a big wave comes and shakes the vehicle and me inside. I saw someone who was sleeping inside the vehicle waking up due to the wave, and me opening a side window to get away and save myself."

Strong waves of activating karma through the field will wake people up. Don't resist it though! It's only your ego that will escape - and that's no escape at all. The ego is already in prison!

You said...

    " I was parked somewhere with friends and it was time to leave. The other car started its journey but I noticed that I didn't have the keys of my car."

Keys refer to destiny and direction. The dream implies you lost your direction. What you really need is to apply your internal compass to follow the inner journey rather than the outer one. You might find the new Openhand process helps in that regard...Openway

That's what speaks to me loudest.

Blessings

Open *OK*

Open, thank you very much for offering your perspective.

Even though I didn't like that the dream implies that I lost my direction, it makes sense. Indeed, I find myself very much concerned about what is going on 'out there'. I am so much attached to the outcome! Even though I devote time for inner work, when it comes to decision making, I find it very difficult to trust and take a leap of faith, and as a result I have based some key decisions on the 'outer journey' rather than the inner one.

However, in retrospect I can now acknowledge some of these 'mistakes', which reveal some deeper truth. For example, last year I made a decision based on the prestige that would bring, rather than on what I was more interested in. This revealed to me my need to hear others say 'congratulations', and my sense of not being enough. Maybe this is related to childhood, that's how I got 'love', by achieving highly at school. But I don't want this anymore. It is limiting and does not serve me. Also, a synchronistic sign reminded me that 'the truth shall set you free'. I was wondering What's the truth behind seeking love and congratulations from others... Maybe that in truth that I deserve it and I don't need to achieve anything to get it.

So what I noticed is, that maybe even the wrong decisions which lead one loosing their direction, may be part of the process of self-discovery. Any thoughts on this?

I'd like to say thank you once more, because for me, the first step towards solving a problem is acknowledging it. I thought that my unconscious was 'screaming' at me after this final dream... And as Freud pointed out: what seems unimportant in the dream may be a very important hidden message, and vice versa.

With Grattitude,

Alexandros :)

Hi Alexandros - it continues a great inquiry :-)

You said...

    "I was wondering What's the truth behind seeking love and congratulations from others?

Yes, always look for the truth in the distortion - let's not throw the baby out with the bathwater.

When the soul creates, there is an aspect of it (the soul) that watches the creative reflection of its actions - so as to be able to get better and better alignments. The soul is looking for a feedback loop. But it's only looking for how to improve. It's the ego looking for an external justification. It's the same with love - the soul is looking for a feedback loop so as to feel self love. Whereas the ego is looking to be loved by others.

You said...

    "Maybe even the wrong decisions which lead one loosing their direction, may be part of the process of self-discovery?"

Choice is an illusion. When you still believe in choice, the ego will fool itself in this false sense of freedom (but often beat itself up about 'right' and 'wrong' choices). I observe that the ego is going to make the choices it is going to make, based on conditioning and programming. Ultimately there is only self-discovery. Nothing else is going on. So the key is to try not to worry about the 'choices' you make - simply do what you're going to do, then figure out why you did it. In other words, bring awareness to what you do and why.

In this way, the illusion of choice starts to dissolve with the ego, and with that the idea of mistakes. Then what you're left with is a path of light. The soul simply flows.

Namaste

Open *OK*

Hi Open, thank you for illuminating reflections, there is a lot to digest here.

It is difficult to grasp that 'choice is an ilusion', but I'm fine with it, maybe I don't need to. While reflecting on what you said these questions arose: 'What about co-creation? Doesn't it involve a choice?' Where does our responsibility lie? Then I remembered what you call constant conscious choice. Maybe the only choice is how to 'be' - conscious in our actions rather than what to do.

I think this lack of clarity is related to me slightly misunderstanding what you meant by 'losing my direction'. I thus interpreted it in terms of the choices relating to the outer world. Which reflects this loss of direction. It seems that it is so easy to happen!

Best regards,
Alexandros

hi Alexandros - I know this is a tough one to fully grasp, prior to experiencing pure presence for any length of time.

In pure presence, it literally feels like 'there is no one here'. You feel completely empty inside - completely clear. There is no sense of separated identity. It's very easy to then pop out of this state - the very question alone "well how do I now choose the next step?" is enough to pop you right out.

Until you realise, that from this vast emptiness, the soul arises - not as a being - but as a stream of flowing consciousness. It is not making choices - but simply flowing as a river would flow. The flow adjusts according to the multidimensional landscape, and also according to the uniqueness the soul is given to express.

Prior to this point - which is enlightenment - then there is still the separated ego, where part of the soul is stuck in identity, believing it has a choice. But then one day, enough of the soul has integrated, so as to surrender to the path of self-realisation. I would say at this point - from realignment to enlightenment - there is one authentic choice: to continually surrender to the mainstream of the soul. This is the constant conscious choice of which I speak.

And so how do co-creations happen? Souls are drawn by their inner polarity by the Law of Attraction. And from that, realities manifest.

Wishing you well

Open