Hi Soulcraft,

Thank you for your input. I am aware of the root of the feeling and the thoughts...I feel quite settled into the place of observing. I find I can be set deeply within and still feel a sense of who I am behind all the comings and goings of the thoughts, feelings, emotions, though fear quickly pulls me out. For me, at this point, when fear arises this is a key time for me to really root into the feeling in the body as I quickly respond by going MIA internally...this is somthing I am working with all the time.

After some reflection, It feels to me like I am holding the space for this feeling inside - and as the moments arise - containing the feeling that comes with the thoughts of inadequacy etc....and rather than acting out the same way I normally would (with typical social banter or what have you) - giving enough room for that to burn out. I got a bit of a flash of insight after writing my post and there was a knowing that there IS a truth in the inadequacy of what I am saying when I am feeling pressured to say something because the moment is actually inviting me to be still enough inside, open enough inside in that moment to allow the words to come - the ones that are divinely given...and often that may be silence. It's not easy to allow that to come...but that's where I feel I am sitting now...between the old pattern and an authentic expression.

Thanks for helping me to explore =)

With love,
Jen