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What are we supposed to be trusting in ?

I trust that i will have exactly what i need in order to progress along the spiritual path. To take it bit further i trust that all my needs will be taken care of to the extent that i don't have to struggle or intentionally manifest something with my mind. The last bit sounds a little too good to be true. Im currently in a situation where my income is less than the cash outflow. Even though i have developed a fair degree of trust in the matter ,i'm a little too careful where i spend and how i spend. I feel good when i'm rightfully spending even and sometimes especially when i'm giving away to others and feel bad when spending recklessly. I don't want to be in a position where i'm depended on others and also do something totally meaningless to sustain myself. I doubt if something could really come up in my path since i doubt i lack the necessary skills. Im looking for some confirmation that its ok to trust ( the blustering water pump got switched off exactly when i wrote this - could i take it as confirmation - i doubt it!)

Am i trusting the intrinsic working of the universe or the benevolence . Does it matter?

I also find it hard to trust people. Its like when you are on the drivers seat speeding along the road its fine but when some ones else does it ,you start to panic .I'm actually more afraid of people than places and situations i find myself.

Is some degree of doubt good?

Somehow i find this question surprising. I thought for a fully realized being there is NO degree of doubt! When i'm travelling i find it hard leave my stuff for the fear of it getting stolen. Its actually very limiting. Im slowly putting this to test and finding positive results. This happened while travelling last time. I was feeling quite high and expansive beneath a waterfall with crystal clear water. At some point i couldn't hold myself back and i jumped into water. But things didn't turn out as i planned - i couldn't hold on to anywhere and there was no one else around. I panicked so much that i thought i was gonna die. It was a stupid decision ,luckily i came back in one piece. Sometimes i can't discern between Risk and Recklessness. I also have doubt that i'm blindly believing trust to take no initiative

Still i have a fair degree of trust that i can't go 'wrong' in the spiritual path. It's just a matter of time before i reach on to the other side.

Vimal