Open,

Yes! I see! Not just spiritual practice, but aligned spiritual practice, and not practice such that there is a hope for an outcome which can build subtle doing identity.

Oh wow, yes! I have had a few sizeable releases in the last few months, and hence that triggered subsequent realizations. Well, what happened in the midst of the releasing of a lot of pent up energy was a bit of a worry of what those around me thought about it because it was intense. --Not fully accepting and being ok with it all, which led me to think well maybe there is a more subtle and gentle way to go about it so as to not freak out my family. I released a lot of energy that I related to my mother because I was looking to her for love, acceptance, safety, etc. I was looking outside of myself. The releasing happened over the course of a couple of weeks, lots of anger, turmoil, sadness; the main realizing release happened as my family sat at the kitchen table staring at me with their mouths a bit open in shock and awe as I deeply expressed the honest yet dense and illusioned energy. So I subsequently thought that I should embrace better spiritual practices for a more gentle approach. I see now what has transpired and I also am in the process of fully accepting it all.

I also really appreciate this "you'll likely find that others are important as the flow of soul brings you into challenging density - like karma for example" - yes, this is what is happening and I appreciate you stating this as it helps clarify what is going on. When you are swimming through the silt with confusion it can be difficult to discern what is happening, and then when you come here and read something like this for perspective, it is so helpful, it brings it all together!

Thanks for the info on the Breakthrough Breathing Meditation and suggestions on movement like soulmotion.

With gratitude,

Shauna