Hi Jen,

We're right there with you!

I think a lot of the starsoul archetype perceptions have been hugely glamourised in the spiritual manistream - you only tend to hear the 'good' stuff, and not the karmic challenges. I see this Sirian legacy in many places - and it doesn't matter what name we put to it. Although I sense these bonded farternal/familial legacy weaves are coming to the surface now as we progress through the Inflexion Point of the Shift.

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The pulling apart has felt like losing parts of myself and now there is a crippling sense of paralysis and perceived disability...when I stay with it I feel panic and hard to breathe.

To me, the description reflects very classic Sirian karma. The reality became unstable and literally tore itself apart. There will be lots of sense of fragmentation of soul in this. I hear these symptoms often; not being able to breathe for example - suddenly the very air you're breathing disintegrates, you might feel like a fish out of water. There'll be shock, disbelief, paralysis. I know this is a tough one to take, but to me, the gas chambers of the Second World War were the remanifestation of this karma.

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The sense of family loss leaves a nakedness and unfamiliarity - like learning how to interface all over again without the comforts of that connection. Strange feeling to feel like a pillar rather than a net.

Go with it Jen. I know it's tough - I've experienced similar from my own "Team" disconnect, when being projected into realities. Trust that there's a way through all this - your soul will carry you through the storm of it. Just keep working deep into the feelings and taking one step at a time. Even if you can't make sense of it, your soul will start to harness the flow through it, then progressively shape a more aligned landscape around you. In times to come, around the corner, as you look back, the 'dots' of realisation and soul integration will have all joined up - so 'tie yourself to the pillar of self-realisation'.

Know that you're not alone - you are seen, heard and understood. You are supported in the ether - but as you know, it's something we each have to personally work through.

Sending much love and support

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