Dear Anastasia ,

Thank you for such a deep heartfelt inquiry. I have not answered the one you wrote to me ,yet because I still need to feel enough into what you said ( and because often these days my brain is the consistency of mush 😀😀😀) but I totally 'get ' what you say about accepting positive feedback loops as the gifts that they are. I have progressed from being closed down ,critical and dismissive of another's heart felt praise to allowing it to stoke the fire of my self esteem and self love . To nourish my soul . In that girl who felt two entirely different concepts colliding ,I see much of who I used to be . And still am. Just recently I could feel myself closing down when a mom tearfully and heart fully thanked me for being there for her child. In my head ,I was wondering what brought about a return of my old.pattern . It was perfection. Another kid was struggling and I was part of the team and I just couldn't relax enough to accept the compliment .

Thank you !

Megha