Dear Open,

In the last couple of days I felt a massive influx of Fear into my energy system . I was an emotional mess all day and it took a lot of breathing and calming myself down and indeed equalizing to mantain some sanity in what felt like a storm in my emotional field. The next day clarity seems to have returned. The storm seems to have washed away a big chunk of my co-dependant tendencies in relationship and I found myself expressing truths to my partner kindly but firmly .

As also I suddenly see in the much clearer sky of my psyche a big need to express my own truths and invest in myself ( especially the latter ) .

3 days ago I was dealing with a very sick newborn girl ,who despite all my efforts ,I couldn't save . A lot of emotions came up and a whole lot of karma . Within me this manifests as self blame ,guilt and deep self hate . All of which I saw much more consciously this time . Just the day prior I had been making plans for the next iteration of my medical practice. A lot more teaching and practicing in under served communities is what I was planning .

I felt into poverty consciousness and then bam I was hit with karma and then fear in overwhelming buckets . In the last 2 years especially the last few months there has been change after change after change within and without .

It's very challenging. It is also very, very enlivening .

:)

Megha

Just wanted to share and to see if others are feeling