Open, I feel committed to the inquiry because I derive pleasure from connecting the dots, observing the synchronicties and realising the incredible freedom by letting go of what does not serve. Nowadays I feel centred simply by realising that I don't have to be anything that I'm not already is. Your reply reminded me the importance of allowing the inquiry to be in the mind without wanting to solve it. I remember I had an obsession of solving the problem and couldn't go on to the next one without finishing this one. I keep reminding myself the juggling metaphor. It's also kind of like when you are trying to remember something like a name for instance and the more you try the more it evades you. At one point you get tired and let go of it by which the name lands beautifully in the mind. I also see that I see synchronicties more often when I have an inquiry in mind. And the synchronicties support that by offering a reflection to which I resonates. 50% - 50% is also helpful. When you are holding onto an inquiry you are maybe 70% inside and 30% outside such that there's no room for answers and further inquiries to flow. I think it's because of lack of trust that realization wouldn't happen of its own accord and now you need to do something about it.

Thanks for the help

Vimal