Again I'm not sure why but I feel pulled to reply on this forum and not another one. In the last four days I have been deeply disturbed. On Sunday I was feeling into deep disappointment and disillusionment with the way the masculine is expressed in the world. And just to magnify these deep feelings ,the Universe obliged. I am one of the singers in a group of eminent peditaricians that is organizing a charity concert . It came to our notice that the person we had called as a guest was in fact a child molester . Much much worse ,he used to molest patients in his very senior position decades ago . What really deepened my disappointment was the fact that all these much older men who claimed to be outraged wanted to go on pretending everything was just fine and not call him out.He is very highly decorated ,I fluential doctor. I pulled out after writing a short note about how this is just against my conscience.

In all of this I cried many bittertears . Not for the fact of the molestation but how such acts are not called out even by people in the position to do so. I felt the grievious disappointment of the Feminine about the ineffectuality of the toxic masculine. It's been deep processing the last few days until I realized that I had embodied Ray 1 . I was the strong protector masculine that I had been aching for. Again the Universe responded with a mirror . A man in hold in high regard let go of his own reticence and gently but firmly asked the famous doc to stay away .

The hurt is within. So is the unwinding of it. The pain is within. So is the salve . I feel as though something deep and real has healed within me . And has come alive in many men I know that witnessed me.as.I cried honest tears of rage.

Deep love to you all in your process. Onward !

Megha