I am reading this while I am ''doubled over with pain' as something my Mom did has triggered a whole gamut of suppressed maternal wounds. I am attempting to be at One with these very disorganized ,childish parts of myself as much as possible . And yes ,as this pain unwinds glorious synchronicity comes my way ( IIsuddenly get an opportunity to see a hundred kids in a medical camp almost next door) and creativity is unleashed ( I am writing stories and painting) . The little community gardening plot away from the city is my refuge and recharge spot and we are seeing so may birds there these days . It is a very very intense time and I am trying to be very very loving and gentle towards myself as I traverse these paths . I am feeling the inflexion point intensely as it appears as the troughs are deeper and the crests higher than they have ever been . On the one hand I am loving my work ( I work with babies - I am the luckiest person in the world) and on the other hand the entire quantum of what feels like ancestral pain feels like it has erupted from within my chest - my heart chakra is literally on fire.

Thank you for this piece . It really validates my experience right now .

Warm regards !

Megha