Hi Megha,

Being on the edge of life and death that way can surely bring people right into the truth of the moment, likewise it can terrorise if we allow the fear or resistance to take over.

You said...

ego prefers to form a narrative ,a story and interact with that rather than the real and raw emotions and sensations I am feeling.

Bingo. That's the problem. The ego creates the narrative which then separates from the truth of the moment. And you're right on when you say this...

The conundrum internally is to feel into the emotions not to my interpretation

That's it. In unenlightened states, you're constantly forming judgments of the moment, creating narratives which then create barriers to the truth. It's this separation that creates small "I" identity that can then be victimised by the twist and turn of events.

I just came across this example and felt to share it because I think it offers a powerful practical example of the imporatnce of turning right into the circumstances you're facing and might be resisting. Becoming as-one with the situations we find ourselves in is a powerful passage to The One...