I agree, everything seems a reflection of myself especially when things are very intense and the mirror shows me something that I didn't want to own yet. Unfortunately I don't immediately get when the situations are taking place but most times later.

One of my biggest distortions is that I can't stand up from myself - what I need, my limitations, my truth. This is years and years of conditioning with family and school system where my voice was systematically suppressed, shamed and controlled. I know I'm judging but can't help myself. Synchronistically life has again led me to the situation of school system where I can see the fear of authority face to face and how that expects me to be a certain way. But a good thing is that I see the distortions for what they are, not trying to fix it or not judging myself too harshly but seeing that this what I have to go through. Atleast challenges are better than nothing at all. I recollect instances in school system where I had enough of shaming and decided to stand up for myself. And that felt good. Maybe the truth is that of not wanting to hurt others, not being a threat for others, not being the reason for others sadness. But the sad thing is shoving down my truth results in my frustration since everything I see is a reflection, I can only see others frustration. Specially from those who have learned to be quiet, accepting and hide under protective veils.

Some weeks before something powerful happened, driven by the twin flame reflection - I called an unfairness into question within a group which drew a lot of judgments towards me specially from those who were invested in the current status quo. But interestingly it didn't matter because inside I was celebrating my new found confidence which had skyrocketed which positively influenced my game and what I did. Naively I thought that would stay but it didn't. Yet I made connections and even the connection from which I had judgements intitaly also strengthened which was very inspiring.

I guess the art of standing up for my truth is something to be learned step by step and not to be expected to happen in one giant sweep. So patience.