Hi All and thank you Open for inviting us to join in and participate virtually =).

What's motivating me? as in what is engaging you in your relationships, jobs and general living circumstances?

I can relate to what Rich shared about re-building. It's been challenging to be in the ashes of a dismantled life and to truly embrace the possibilities within that.

There is a longing to give fully - 100% commitment. Something has to give as there is an increasing sense of frustration around getting pulled into the crevasses of ingrained patterns.

What blockages are coming up?

My children are home sick with stomach pain and I ponder my own sense of "home sickness". There is very much a sense of being disconnected and shut out from benevolent guidance. I realize that this has not been done to me though the feeling is still one of isolation.

I feel frustration around not feeling that I can get my feet on the ground and move in any direction. My greatest fear at the moment is to never actualize potential...every day goes by and I am still here in the same energetic space. I am finding it challenging to find focus and commitment. The lower body feels as though it's buried beneath the ground and my upper body is pulling to live, experience, explore. The frustration is gnawing and I tend then toward numbing with distraction. The experience of passing time feels to be a massive pressure.

What's your orientation in life? (what do you perceive is your underlying sense of purpose guiding your life?)

Self-realization - complete surrender and expression of the divine will. Without this sense of purpose, it all feels completely meaningless. I am not saying I am in that place, but that it is this sense that holds even my feelings of disconnection and isolation and moves me to keep on.