Hey Anatoly - sounds like you're having an awesome unfolding - happy for you

Hi Megha - your sharing is powerful, and a wonderful practical example of what I'm speaking about...

either capitulated ( passivity ) or gone the opposite route and straight up rebelled when there has been a significant difference of opinion. This time ,with some effort I have let things just be in a mess between us rather than be in a rush to resolve by using either of the strategies.

That's the point - rather than coming from the simple repetitive reaction, soften in and you start to touch the underlying source pain of the convolution - where the soul is stuck...

The Fear seems like a mass around my neck throttling me. Funnily enough ,I felt hands strangling me a while ago in meditation as well.( What was that ? )

I see past life karma - literally being throttled in some previous relationship engagement. So that's likely the cause of the relationship challenges - bouncing from one extreme to the other. Assuming so, regress right into the sense of that when you get the opportunity. Do you feel disempowered? If so, allow it, and fully express it. Do you feel rage? Do the same. The work to soften right through the feelings. Know this...

A more powerful controlling person could control your physicality and limit you that way. However, it is only ever our choose as to whether we feel powerless at a soul level - whether we retract from the situation.

I trust you'll empower yourself to come to Belgium - I think you'll get masses from it

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