Dear Open and all those tuning in ,

As I have been dealing with some seriously rare gut issues in babies ,I was preoccupied intellectually looking up literature and also staying up most nights.One of the babies has a Dad that believes in Homeopathy which I think is great too except his kid wasn't getting better with it. I was wrestling with his lack of Trust in my direction . Until I went Duhh!! The gut issues need me to feel into my gut ( I am honestly so dense sometimes !!) . And I did. At which point he totally agreed with me and she is much better. On my end though feeling I to my gut has led me I to the heart of my people pleasing behaviour and also inner child traumas that led me to people please . I saw how I misused my empathy not to set my husband off only because I didn't want to witness the pain of reliving the marital strife I saw when I was little. I have suppressed my truth very often so as to not rock my marital Boat ,which of course leads to resentment . And as I am feeling into this of course ,I am not on good terms with my husband who I see now also doesn't want to confront his Pain from his childhood .

I am still feeling into my solar plexus and I know this is going to unlock a lot of energy and perhaps cause a.lot of upset .

Deep breaths ! Lots of love to all that are also feeling into twisted guts . Reflections are always welcome .

Megha