Thank you Open, Marije and Rich and all the participants for an incredible week! A lot got put onto the fire and is now cooking...many inquiries that have yet to fully reveal what's going on for me.

It feels like a deeper level of my trip switch out of intensity has been revealed. It seemed that had already been uprooted years ago...and now I am finding it again...as I approach deeper core pain, a thin film encases the pain and pops awareness into a neutral space. I know that I have the internal space to let the wave rise - it seems to me to be more of an old childhood pattern of protection - one that trips so quickly I hardly notice it happens until I am in the false "everything is fine space". Some consumptive patterns have also been revealed...though I feel these are more ruts in behavioral patterns that can be changed with awareness. While walking one afternoon I found a large white feather and swooped down to retrieve it...piercing my finger on a large thorn at the same time. It seemed to confirm what I am expressing. I am happy to see this and to welcome the opportunity that life is offering... to feel more deeply the sense of abandonment and not mattering. I also saw a well deep into the core of the feeling and at the bottom of the the well was this hot ball of light and dark burning and transforming...I know that's where I am invited to go.

Thank you all for helping illuminate the places I get stuck and to Remember the way through.

Biggest hugs and love to you all,

Jen