My recent experience with this. I will see if I can bring clarity into it.

The night I returned from the desert around a month ago, I had a peculiar experience. First, it began with what felt like an energetic attack and karmic regression. I had experienced this many times in the past, even when I was a child during times of high fever. But the experience had intensified over the years and this time it was the most intense. Anyway, working with this energy, it integrated within me and there was an opening into the void of presence. It was unlike being in the sacred ground, as there was a sense of non-localised presence. Everything else, including my own body, seemed as merely concepts. There was a tinge of regret in the mind, but there was a separation from the mind and it didn’t define me anymore. Particularly, this experience helped to bring an increased dissociation from the mind.

There was a question that arose at that point: How can I have this experience all the time?

Shortly after, I was drawn to some well-known eastern non-duality teaching (Advaita Vedanta), in which the teacher describes being in this experience really well. It was clear it was described from a place of complete non-identification from the phenomenal universe, the mind, and body. Yet I could see how the full soul expression and understanding of life as a process was missing from the approach.

This led me to an inquiry – how can one be in the state of oneness (void of presence) without honouring soul expression?

I went on to reread certain portions of Five Gateways about subtle identity – "the dissolver," which can work to protect this experience. This can even dissolve any activated karma! I wonder if this is a karmic layer especially the eastern tradition is carrying. Does this relate to any First Nation karma? I could be carrying some elements of this, and it would help to bring more clarity into this.

The other end of this experience is to get identified with the phenomenal experience and thus invest oneself in it. Or rather, when flowing with the soul expression, detach from this hallowed place within. So I’m personally working to find a balance which could be a continual breaking through into the place of absoution vs just resting there.

Vimal 💚🙏