Hi Open

You wrote: In 5D you simply open yourself up to the Universe and ask, "Show me!"

There were times when it was relevant for me only to situations when things were not clear or when I was suffering. When everything was cool and life was flowing comfortably, then it was not necessary to ask any questions. Life brought me to a place when I don't know whether my reality will be coherent tomorrow. This put me into a state when I live with a constant "question". So I felt to share that it can become a constant openness no matter what is going on or where we find ourselves. It doesn't have to be local and dramatic, it can be a very simple, "down-to-earth" way of being. For me the key is "not knowing". I simply don't know what twist or turn life will take the next moment. Anything can happen. I can shift, people or reality around me can shift. Ironically, being OK with not knowing is what makes it possible for me to not lose it.

This can be useful in all situations. For example, I've been exploring the effect of a weekly routine that formed in my life, which can seem like a cage for my soul. The natural reaction would be just kick everything out of the way, but then I would lose the ability to co-create, explore, learn, evolve and take basic care of my physical self. One of the questions that may come up when something feels wrong or when there is a judgment of a current reality is "is what is happening right?", "am I in the right place?". Then I just let it go and found myself going around without any answers for months, until I got it! Not knowing IS the answer.

I love syncs but it is also important to remember that silence can also be an answer from the universe and living with this "not knowing" feeling is one of the biggest lessons and gifts life can offer. In the end of the day I really honestly don't know that much I know now that I can always find and exhibit flexibility within the given boundaries.

In the article you wrote:

You're constantly looking for that new expression of being, that new animation - taking the old situations of your life, in your relationships, jobs and general living circumstances and committing to doing things differently

In my experience this is one of the hardest things to do - break the automation or autopilot. There are responses, reactions and actions that become automatic. Especially when things become challenging it is very easy to shrink, become small and react. Over the last couple of years I've been working a lot to find new pathways - to create gaps in time when I can choose how to behave according to what I perceive as the highest good for everybody involved. I've made a lot of mistakes, but eventually I've noticed that there is something in the background that I can always trust, the best version of 'me' that arises when I manage to pause long enough and not to give in to primary impulses.

For example, I've had a very intense situation in yoga studio where I take my yoga teacher training. There was a conflict and all I wanted to do is keep arguing and proving my point because I believed in the rightness of what I was trying to express. It took a lot of inner work to let go and choose a completely different path - the one of peace, serenity, respect, love and harmony. I used to be a fighter. Picking a soft, pliable option really brought me to the edge of my endurance, but retrospectively this was totally the right way to be and the right thing to do.

When there is a pilot rather than autopilot I feel deep contentment. It doesn't have to be big things all the time. It's in the small every-day details of life. Eat cookie with tea or almond milk? When to do my laundry... How often to wash my hair... Stuff like this. Spirituality is not always about big things, big situations and big changes. Sometimes it is about staying where I am and finding new ways of dealing with everything, especially myself.

Hugs

Yulia