Hi Marije,

The energies over the weekend have been very strong indeed, and continue to be so. So it's no surprise that someone with empathic tendencies and given to process field energy would experience what you are.

The arousal is likely caused by the feeling of kundalini activating as field energies strengthen - and the heaving dealing with the energy that comes up as a consequence.

You said...

A part of me would want to just let rip and let it all happen and another part of me still fears the consequences of doing so....

At some point, there is a requirement to let go of the fear of consequence in being authentic. But then you will be stepping onto the edge which will push buttons in those around you.

I mentioned to you earlier to explore ways in which you might dampen the energy temporarily. Have you looked at possibilities for that?

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