Hi Yulia - the great thing is that you have a real 'handle' on what's happening for you - you're able to witness and be aware of the various transformations of consciousness and the natural effect they have in the outer. And how you're experiencing evolved relating (as opposed to fixed relationships) I'd say is one of the great challenges for people here - mostly not wanting to offend and therefore not sharing the truth - which leads to falsehood and illusionary realities. So it's tremendous that you've come into this place.

What jumps out for me to reflect back to you are a couple of lines from the middle...

Another big thing is 'loss of consciousness', what would happen in so-called psychosis. In spiritual work a lot is put on being aware, conscious and grounded. Yet, very interesting things happen when these are gone.

I would associate this more with coming into deep presence - and so the rigid framework of the constructs we've built inside break down - and need to. But how to function from this place? (and the openness can look like 'pyschosis'). It's the soul that has to take over. The soul then gives direction, purpose and interaction - which I can see you're clearly picking up. What about the ray 1 though? - the warrior? How is this coming through? And how quickly does it come through? It's possibly this that would give more the traction back into reality.

Open