Hi Yulia - yes the exploration of death can lead to the beautiful dropping of the illusion, indeed. I can recall (consciously) travelling onto the very edge of the void, as a deep deep well. And the pull to simply sink into it and dissolve out - how tremendous for the noise and busyness, the constant creation just to simply dissipate and soften into infinite peace.

Was there any ownership of this? And it's the question I ask you now.

As I was about to dissolve out, I 'heard' something. Not with ears of course. But it was an umistakable pull 'through the heart' (not a physical heart of course). It drew back to more experience, to shared experience, and a recognition that there were others still suffering from the illusion. It wasn't a decision as such. Just the arising of soul. And that's the key - where there's no ownership, the soul happens by itself. And when its always happening by itself, then there can be resting in the Void too. The eye of the storm.

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