Heather - it's for sure courageous that you managed to show a glimpse of your earlier experiences here - that is for sure commendable. And that anyone should have to suffer such experiences, for me demonstrates that there is still a great deal of karma to be processed. I feel for everyone out there who still has this kind of density to go through.

I see this kind of thing all the time in the karmic regressions that people go through and the Openhand work helps them come to terms with. Whilst the childhood abuse you've suffered has been clearly traumtic, and ultimately no one should have to suffer, neverthless it is widespread, and I've seen far far worse than you've described - people having suffered ongoing satanic sexual ritual as children for example. And what we've hardly scratched the surface of, is how humanity was hybridised in the first place - which is why so many women (especially) carry birthing trauma. This still has to be processed to be cleared on a broad scale at a human level - still so much work to be done.

Heather you said that you're experience here was "was definitely re-traumatising, so so painful". Do you mean this thread has done that, and my challenges about people in spiritual mainstream generally not stepping up to the plate - is that what you mean? It's not clear. But generally I would say to anyone, that true healing is not reframing the experience or politely ignoring unpaletable truths or perspectives. No matter how painful, to truly heal, is to go right into the epi centre of the original karmic wound. What Openhand has developed are processes to help people regress into these places and to compassionately hold them there, in the knowing that they are not alone, until they can truly equalise with it. Only then does true healing take place because that fragment of soul that was stuck in the karma is met and integrated. If a wound contiunes to open, or continues to re-traumatise, then it is not yet healed.

Yes, I've come across plenty of people on the verge of suicide. The approach is the same: to be courageous enough as a healer to allow them to explore the experience, and the likely consequences, without talking them out of it or judging. Often a healer fears to go into this place with them and this then communicates energetically to the person, which actually makes it worse, it only perpetuates the attachment they have to it. However if, as a healer, you can hold the space for it, without energetically retracting yourself, they'll feel your rock steady confidence. Then to explore with them, "what is it now that is worth living for?" When someone is truly suicidal, it's actually only in the pit, where they discover the will to live - and for that to be lasting, it must be their own will, not that induced or reframed by the healer. They have to be held in it, until they find the will to live for themselves. Then they can truly heal.

I wish you well on your journey Heather, and may you grace the Openhand shores as and when the path guides.

Open