and that's exactly how i feel, over and over again the same old pointless foolishness, but even knowing this, and being vigilant with watching myself as you have guided, i can't seem to let go of it! i'm making little changes that give me hope but still clinging to the same old. i'm exhausted from myself. it's the absence that i struggle with rn, how not to react when thats all i've ever done. always having to be right and oh how dare they etc! i simply don't know why i struggle so much to let go. but i still have hope even though there are days i'm sure i'll never change. i have a lot of work ahead of me. thank you for showing the way💜🙏