Divinicus keeps going

(Personal journey/initiation of becoming a human being)

It's been 24 days since I received the invitation for the retreat "Divinicus in the desert". 3X8 days: Preparation and heading towards the experience / 'Retreat time' of immersion and diving deep / Subsequent integration and actualization of the experience - symbolically representing the main three stages of Self-realization.

Who am I, through the lenses of Divinicus? How does Divinicus in me want to express itself? In which way has the alchemical pot of transmutation, held together by the Openhand team, participants and ethereal presence, forged the pathway of my Soul?

If there ever was a reason for me birthing into this reality, if there is such a thing as purpose in one's life... it is for me to appear at this stage at this point in my life. To simply be part of this course.

Would you ask me, if this has been a life-changing experience - I need to be honest and say it wasn't the case. My life has already became magical in its ordinary sense, so it felt more like a celebration of life. Yet there was this continous yearning - how can there be more to it?, throughout the whole process.

And there's been a lot. Embracing and peeling away the layers of never-ending distortions of countless stories in my life as a human. Travelling through closeby and 'distant' experiences that led me to this plane of existence. Exploring the vastness of the Cosmos, far beyond the capacity of my mind that keeps wanting to make sense of it. Feeling into the parts of myself I didn't even know existed in the first place (or might be just buried deep within the sediment of soul's stories), while applying the ultimate prayer of life itself - forgiveness.

As the group process supported my alchmical process, there are countles stories embraced with my inner senses. Inspired by traversing some of it for mutual understanding and simultaneously anchoring the energy of it, I would briefly mention some that stimulate my imagination.

Etheric tail in my energy field has grown to the extent of reaching outstanding connectivity, representing the transformation of wounded dragon. Real magic lies in capacity of being able to relate to each expression of divinity.

Or sitting in a direct vicinity with Gaia, and feeling both - the pain and frustration, as well as love for it's 'disabled child' called humanity. Ground crew needs to get prepared, as Gaia is 'changing skin'.

Even serving as a 'cosmic facilitator', while navigating the negotiation of two strings of intervention happening simultaneously in the Earth's field. The One in me, simply never ceases to fascinate me.

And afterall, it's all just a game that I am so blessed to play. Life as a human being. Embracing countless variations of it's expression, while tunning into the mystical portal of my human's heart. I'm in love in my journey towards Love, this is a big one for me. Experiencing the desert, together with my beloved partner on the land of my ancestors made it very real... Facing, probably the biggest fear of it's expression - what if am wrong, what if am not of light?, has assisted me to gain trust into the benevolent nature of The Universe as me on the deepest levels.

It seems, for the being like mine, that true Love can only be stimulated when the conditions of life has forged the diamond in the Soul to be freely expressed. This for me, is the reason enough, to recognize that the Shift in counsciousness has taken place, within our collective Soul. Humanity has no other choice, but to embark on a journey of merging with it's multidimensional aspect. What is through lenses of awakening portion of humanity percieved as ascension, to me at moments feels like 'descension'. Revitalizing spirit through matter, as the eons of time has passed in 'this reality'.

Dear Openhanders, actual pearls of transformation process, it is my biggest joy to be part of this group.

Dear facilitators (Elizabeth, Open, Tilly,...), it is such a privillege to reflect the essence of your work by my state of being.

The emergence awaits, let all be welcomed with open heart.

Miha/Inverted Tree/Sunbow