Hi Open,

I get what's happening. I posted about the weather extremes and how it felt inside me but it was removed, I think because I didn't explain well enough. I suspect that what I call that excitement inside me is the same things others are voicing here...the "come on, Bring it on!" attitude, because some part of me wishes all this to be over. I'm all alone except for jabbed people around me occasionally and they're pretty toxic. So it gets hard. So I see or hear of the extreme weather and think, "ok, my time here is almost over" and that brings that feeling that this sh*tstorm on earth will be over soon.

But I too know I'm not ready enough for the 5D and many times I feel I'll fail before I get it all done right. I'm right in the thick of that dung with everyone else, feeling like it's not good enough, I'm not good enough to make it to 5D and will be stuck in 4D and I don't want to be there. But I've not given up! When it's a dark time and I feel I'm being thwarted, then miracles/blessings come that lift me up again and give me a reason to keep moving forward. It happened this weekend and now my excitement is that I'll be able to keep doing this work. Something inside me keeps feeling that we (humans) don't have 30, or 20, or even 10 years left and I feel pressured to "get it right" and "hurry up and get it right!" That drives me crazy and makes me feel so rebellious with that TO HECK WITH IT attitude. But I'm still hanging in there. I'm determined to hang in there and keep working on this. My mom didn't call me Stubborn for no reason.

Sometimes I joke that the one new thing I've learned through the scammdemic? I've learned how to really cuss! And I have...daily. But I'll go out in nature, I'm prepping my garden beds to plant my Fall crops, though my soul yearns to move on from this planet. But I will still make my Fall garden this week because it's calming to me and the critters pop out of raised beds from under the plants and I calm down out there in the greenhouse. I'm seeing little lizards, a baby snake in my greenhouse, a frog was singing to me in there and it cheered me up. My yard is full of birds, tons of critters are drawn here. I put food out for them. I feel now it's their oasis because I can make that happen as long as I'm here.

I don't mind the hard conversations from you, sometimes I need the kick in the rear. I know you care. I care too. I commented that I love elephants and I truly do. They're so majestic and I'd love to have one. My heart would burst with happiness. But yes, the elephants and dung that nobody talks about is a huge issue. I get it. I truly do.

Namaste

Sherri