Hi Barb

Must say I'm fascinated with your writing, kind of resonates, I can see myself more clearly now. But to blame yourself for immaturity is almost funny, you just shown more maturity than most people are capable of. Blaming yourself is just another trick of BS energy, eating your own tail, auto destructiveness is its final goal so there's not much work for them, you do it all by yourself. And it is really good in provoking anger, my trick is to focus on breath, just keep breathing, breath by breath, that's the water for fighting fire. Good news is that this fire is short lived if you don't add a fuel. Someone suggested me to use rattle, just put some small gravel in little plastic can. This energies feed on fear because that's their frequency, they are full of fear. That's why old nations are using drums, gongs, even sacred sound OM have the same function, to show them where their place is. Their only power is to use our power, energy, that's why they are so tricky.

Just remembered words from Don Juan Matus: "To be young and youthful is nothing, but to be old and youthful is sorcery. "