The last 24 hrs has kept the rainbow synchronicity very vivid.
(at the place we did the workshop, With Love Salon, and the light reflecting on the hotel TV screen while watching Ancient Aliens)

Yesterday, Martin and I participated in a Wim Hof breathwork workshop in the big city 30 miles from our hometown. I created a short "stay-cation" for my kiddos with booking a hotel in Kansas City for the night. They were so excited--a TV and a big city--they could watch whatever for a few hours and feel the pulse of a city's energy. Mom booked a "cool and stylish" hotel. Wow!

As a mother, I have been challenged for 16 years with aligning my beliefs as a parent to my children's soul journeys. Food, media, pharma medication, education, split-family relations, etc: nothing has unfolded the way I imagined my life as mother, parent, teacher and wife/partner. Efforting every day to provide a well balanced meal/constant NO about screen time/holistic healing vs. just giving up and allowing junk food/the glow of the screen on all three kid's faces/saying yes to synthetic drugs. I have never wanted to control my children. I have just wanted to do the best for them that I have come to understand over the years are heavily influenced by tons of books, educational philosophies, family and friends. Finding the balance of Gwyn and Mom, I have disliked this processes so much, feeling that my soul has been rubbed wrong, racked over the coals and kicked in the stomach coupled with the honor of being parent with overwhelming, heartfelt joy and love, wonderment and playful imagination, and commitment for saying yes to bringing these children into the world. Going through a range of emotions daily linked to false expectations and dreams, identities I do not agree with. I breathe through so many moments sometimes feeling into the emotion, often settling for distractions to get me to the next thing I "have to do" to make it through the day.

When I walked in the salon, after settling my kids in the hotel and kissing them all goodbye, I knew I was at the right place for the next 4 hours.

I was given a bit of time and space -- breathing and feeling into myself while sharing the experience w a group of ten. And it ended with a 2 min immersion in an ice bath. An initiation-- commitment to myself --a reminder over and over again.

The most impactful statement the instructor said was at the very end as we were coming out of the breath work and given an opportunity to journal. He mentioned that the safest place we have all encountered was in our mother's womb. Throughout the duration of approximately nine months, we have all floated around in an existence of nothingness--warm, dark and to some extend encapsulated in unconditional love.

We came into this world with a first breath. We will leave this life's experience w the last breath.
Step by step, the rainbow connection. I imagine my feet on the 7 colorful strings of my soul's expression.
Dancing on the strings brings the harmonizing song. Falling off into the space between the strings allows the tension and contrast to build.
To breathe we don't need to think; the autonomic nervous system takes care of us.
Surrender to the chaos. Accept no identity. This is the melody. What a beautiful symphony!