It's hard to surrender to the fact someone close to you rather stays comfortable, and has the judgement you are making them uncomfortable. I'm very sensitive to when a dynamic needs to go to a new level and want to shake things up, and it doesn't so much matter to me anymore that that means there are lots of days with discomfort. I don't always go about that in the right way though, I can see that. Within relationships I have to find balance in surrendering to that creative tension, not reacting to it and almost wanting to be ahead of it. There will be opportunities to express new frequencies of being, there seems to be impatience around that. I can see I want external validation for this aspect of me, and try to bring it inside, not to judge myself for always wanting more (or another for not wanting that), a deepening. How can we not always want more (and not in a greedy sense) if we are the very expression of constant evolution and change?