Thank you Open - that makes perfect sense. I am all too aware that my logical 'safe' way of approaching things is not the way the soul works - a lifetime of feeling I was responsible for resolvng problems and 'making things better' when part of me didn't want to feel that responsibility has left it's mark and now I don't have to feel responsible for anyone or anything except myself it has been hard to find another way of being.

I have asked why I have manifested this and came to much the same conclusion, as when there is a blockage nothing is flowing and it has felt like the invitation was to let go and trust the flow. It's been a hard pattern to break, but the internal changes I can feel at the moment I think may be tied in to letting go of that egoic part of me which is afraid to feel out of control. I can certainly feel some sort of internal resistance to something inside which wants to change, although I had not been able to name it up to this point. Oddly, working with it has brought up a lot more grief than fear and the analogy which comes to mind is that it's like walking away from a relationship which no longer serves me.

I will keep on working in the way you suggest, which is what I have been doing recently. The signs are good - three things fell over/off shelves for no obvious reason the other day and I took this as a sign that the resistance is coming down, so hopefully the end is in sight.

Thank you for your support and insight🙏

Pam💗