Hi Open,

Yes I'm spirit having a physical lifetime. I do know this and so I accepted the injury to my thumb as what I'd attracted for some reason. Didn't know why exactly but have been patient with it, and yes, worked to heal it. I've also been using my hand as if it's normal but still the issue of not being able to hold things. So I think I may be missing something still. It's an illusion like everything is. There's certainly no shortage of things not working right lately.

I think maybe I'm still not getting it yet on the HOW to transcend the issues I'm facing and also having the implants, blocks, hindrances too. Can't pretend these issues don't exist or ignore them. I know you've gone to the dentist, do you get surgery for your knee issues? I've had surgery before so I assume we do these things as finances allow but that wouldn't be transcending it? I've accepted it's happened for a reason. Now to get to the understanding the reason WHY... Something else went "wrong" again today so there's no shortage of things to transcend. I know people get cancer and want to heal it but I read or heard somewhere that sometimes the healing can be death. I just want to be careful not to give up and quit because I'm missing some key factor.

So while typing this, what jumped out at me that you might see as a spike, is my comment of Using my hand AS IF it's normal. lol It struck me as funny. Then I thought ok, what is really normal? Or new normal? It's all illusion. I feel I need another step to walking through this. I can't even form the question yet. Can you help me with a question? and when I learn how to walk through and transcend these issues, do they go away or do they stay with you and you just continue moving forward with becoming more awake. I know I have all these answers inside but have surely forgotten things. The density drives me crazy. Pain drives me crazier, if that's possible. Then I get mad and then I feel defeated. Stubborness won't let me be defeated for long. So I really, really, REALLY want to master this!

How does such a powerful soul get wimped out by a "tiny" issue such as broken bones and teeth, things not working etc.? Do I stop Doing and just BE? What does BE (being) encompass? I've joked for years that I want my grave headstone to say She died on the toilet, but she wasn't full of shit. I just need to get free of the shit! lol Ok, I'm finished here.

Sherri