Pam, if I may reflect something. Right now I'm in the midst of an intense physical challenge (not of body) - and it is generating the same feeling like you have mentioned - being stranded on a bench. I don't know what to do or if I'm doing something wrong. But a part of me is happy, that I'm doing exactly the right thing because I'm in such a place - it is generating a whole lot of emotional and mental reaction to uncertainty and change and also abandonment. Its a great opportunity to put down the karmic baggage I had been carrying for 30 odd years and who knows how many life times. And there is freedom on the other side. We have a huge advantage. We know the process and how to work with this. If there's anything valuable having here in this place, it's that!

Thankyou for sharing your inquiry into this space. It has helped bring clarity into mine.

Vimal 💚🙏