Hi Open

Yes what you said, like I said felt unfair to all of us that have been caught in this Matrix with all its horrible things going on all over the world. I have watched the videos I’d seen them before but hadn’t really accepted that everyone of us has contributed to making this Matrix and even so it seems Gaia.

I don’t know how to look inside or feel for anything at this moment those gifts have not come yet. So I have to go with what’s right for me in this very moment like as much as this will be frowned upon by vegans I will have to follow a diet I like. I am open to change I have an Autistic Son so I know how change can really affect someone. True though this world we live in is uncertain I would say and if the universe the same and you have to navigate it alone then yes I’m a bit apprehensive.

I know things never stay the same I have had a rollercoaster ride over the 50 odd years of my life. I am now going to do my very best in my thinking to think us out of this Matrix and at the moment that is all I can do. I have no idea how to confront what might trigger as I don’t know that anything has., so not exactly easy.

I think I have changed completely since the latter part of last year, it’s been a big disappointment that the life you’ve lived is not what you thought it was, although since my teenage years I always thought this was a repetitive humdrum kind of place not really enjoying it as others did, and that the lies that have been told to us are beyond belief.

My soul could well be calling as you say I do find myself here. Who knows what turn around could happen but I certainly don’t think that I would have the time required to be ready for 5D the way I see it now it will be only the few who have put in real commitment changed their eating patterns and have got rid of the dense body weight from this intervention. I’m actually not scared of the shift itself at least we who are not 5D will all go together with the ones near us, although once out of body possibly alone again, but to perhaps end up somewhere better than here.

Maybe if we are lucky with a few familiar faces though I know we would not look like we do now. A lot to work through still thousands of questions it’s hard to believe as well this could all be thought into place again and again, I shall keep thinking the evil of all wherever they are that they see the light of their ways and return to source like some have already.

Much Love 🌎❤️💙