Hi Megha,

Interestingly (and you wouldn't have known this), your confrontation with the shame and guilt of having been incarnated as a perpetrator of suffering came up on the same day as we encountered it on the current Resurrection retreat. It's so often the case that people readily recall having been the victim of suppression by the Intervention, but not actually having been a perpetrator of it.

When in actual fact, it's likely everyone took incarnations on both sides of the fence. In order to understand and release sense of guilt or shame, we must see the bigger picture of the macrocosym, where the Universal Torus is constantly ripping realities apart, just as it forms them. To a smaller fractal (us, or society), it looks like injustice is being done to us. And so the soul wants to take on either side of the dynamic so as to release identification, and be able to flow through these tumultuous circumstances that continue to unfold. If you can learn to deal with it at the cellular level (of an individual identity), then you bring wider understanding and acceptance at a universal level.

Another dynamic has happened on the retreat too. After some period of quiet, Ra has resurfaced, particularly now, as the Tall White layer is weakening. And he came in on the shame and guilt of the past. At least what I picked up, is that what's been sustaining him in the Intervention, is avoidance of guilt and shame. It's being packaged up in justification of holding reality constructs together, and soul-contracts to explore karma: like the victim/perpetrator dynamic.

I would say Ra is also being presurrised by the strong volcanic/earthquake/solar dynamic that's converging right now.

I can feel his energy beginning to drain, and even a willingness to explore surrender. That said, I've also experienced a bouncing in and out of that - surrender coupled with attack and resistance.

So this might help you understand the dynamic that's unfolding for you, and why now.

Much love and well wishes
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