I'm becoming more and more familiar with OC/BS interfering in the dynamic, dimming the light in both. It feels sometimes very tricky as there are periods where being connect to Self in a profound way can feel like not being able to relate to the reflection from another. But then a slight expectation or wanting the feedback (or the light of the Self connection pulls the other more into their lower chakra blockages but then are not fully worked with) is an entrance for BS that then can pull one out of the connection to Self. I see a back and forth dynamic happening that feels de-energizing where BS just jumps around from one to the other.

I started to work with feeling alone, being vigilant also in small moments where it creeps up. I make mistakes, but I feel an opening happening in how to keep reconnecting, where I use the aloneness and turn it up in meditation with making the feeling of "the last moment" very real, a sense of a loving forever goodbye that really breaks me inside but becomes then a portal to myself / twin flame if I stay with it. When I break through it doesn't even feel like another being or a "he" to me, more like me feeling whole and able to internally connect to forgotten aspects. 

Much love 🐋