Hey Rich,

I feel you in a way. I've sat with myself for generous amounts of time and I have found that for the time being this space is healing me and offering me the freedom to realign with my essence. I'm also not chasing a romantic connection - just slowly diving deeper into my own experience. What will be will be.

To give you a specific answer as to sharing experiences with others and morphing into a shared field. I have found it necessary to some degree. It depends on how well I've tasted my own essence and how I can feel into the influence of this (shared) field. If I am clearly present in my own experience I will influence the field more than it does - me.

That is to say my output will be richer and stronger than the input. And another thing: psychological transparency. Or just transparency. The only time when anyone can irritate me with their presence is when I don't feel ok with myself and I start judging their beingness as desirable or undesirable.

I let my body make that judgement. I trust that there is visceral way of discerning that is more efficient. Smell is one thing I use in making decisions :D

I just found that - and maybe this applies to you as well - the way in which we have been used to relate to our families and close friends or partners isn't quite true. I'm saying this because I come from a family where separation and lies were the norm. And I have carried that norm into my relationships as well. There is a new way emerging that I haven't yet figured but I feel it and it feels relaxed and - easy. Like a sweet breeze cooling you off after a torrid day.

Question this.

Evangeline