Through some synchronistic flow of events I had two sessions today evening and both reflected some essential aspects of me. They were both in differrent ends of the spectrum. In the first one, I was not even fully aware I was conducting a session as I was just being in my zone and expressing myself through music and words. Very little was coming from her side. I felt I was in control. In the end she paid me which I didn't expect. If I had known she considered It as a session I would have probably tried to take in a specific direction! It was interesting because I was holding this question, how can you differentiate between life, conversation we have in general and a formal facilitation session? I think when the value of money comes in, every thing becomes a little complex. I think it's more the idea of how things should be in our minds which causes us to control. We stick to convention and safety of the known. How can we liberate ourselves from this convention which kills true creation.

Just an hour after I had another prearranged session with a client. We already had a session before and agreed to take it a little deeper this time. Through out the session, I felt control from his end and my energy kept shrinking from expanded joyful sense. I did express it as well. He had his own agenda where he wanted to take it which was conflicting with my process. At the some point something I expressed about vulnerability precipitated a lot of emotions in me and I started to cry. But I recognised it not as a expression of weakness but strength. There was probably a lot of power play going on here, a dance of masculine and feminine energies. Synchronistic in the beginning, I felt to sit in the low chair compared to the high one. That's my natural state of being and i honor it. So I'm wondering how can I come from this natural state of being and yet express my boundaries. I have seen patterns of behaviours where I try to avoid conflict and be the nice guy. This session also illuminated some of that.

I realised one crucial thing, it's that presence, our true place of control and power never diminishes and it's in the background of even our most vulnerable moments. It was liberating to feel the beauty of this power without the effort to control my experiences. In the end he didn't pay me, but it was wonderful to see how universe covered for me through the previous session.

Vimal 🙏