Thank You Jenny and Open for the warm welcome!

Open, thank you for the guidance. Confidence is an issue for me, 31 years spent trying to fit in never let much chance to explore my abilities. Although creativity is flowing easier and easier each day, the struggles to trust with others is still a big theme. Expressing myself to others does feel as if it is an important part of my path. I agree transfiguration isn't complete, - the subconscious wounded child fears still sometimes feel like mine and although I always feel strongly now what is not right, what IS right is more elusive. I haven't come to discover how to live in a way that is nurturing for me. Its too much trial and error, but never losing the commitment or falling asleep to the truth. its been ongoing for the past 2.5 years however a good deal of that time unravelling the big mistakes of career put in motion prior to committing to authentic self and learning (still) how to function in 3d in an authentic way and without the protection and care of my ex husband, with only the past 8 months spent focused more spiritually.
I read once about "wanderers" which I think is similar to what you called star souls. It resonated deeply, especially the part about always feeling there was a mission. When I made the decision when I was 19 to live logically focused I felt as if I was telling myself " I know you feel you are supposed to be a different way but I don't know how to do it".
Have you met others like this who have ascended through the higher gateways? Did they too have karma despite being from away?

Thank you

Sarah