Hi Catharine,

The great thing is that you're beginning from profound honesty - the only place to begin - wonderful *OK*

So what I sense, is that the aligned part of you - your higher self - is creating an impact in this life to cause you to confront the unconsciousness of your lower self. Hence the disability, the 'disempowerment'. It's pretty clear to me this is likely a central theme of your incarnation.

So in order to heal, there's a need to fully experience and express the emotional impact of your life on other sentience - just as you've begun to do. And by the way, fish and sea food is meat. They're sentient creatures - I can say there's no distinction in the higher dimensions. So the impact on our consciousness will be the same. Which I guess is the reason you're reacting.

In order to truly process such karma, we must allow ourselves to feel the emotional impact of our unconscious actions, to try to understand why we do them. Just artificially forming the intention to be more compassionate doesn't work. We actually have to feel why to do it by confronting the impact.

Then we can work to forgive ourselves. That's likely to need a change in behaviour to an aligned way. One that you recognise feels right to you. Then the karma will heal, which will have an expanding effect in your life. Although it's impossible to predict what the physical benefit might be. The key is, you'll feel more integrated, whole and complete with a greater sense of peace.

I'm fully with you.

Open *OK*