Hi Jen,
As I was reading your post it dawned at me that growth happens right on that edge you mentioned. That is where the greatest opportunity for learning lies. It feels quite all right now to dip into the distortion, stay there a little and come back changed.

The polarities seem soo intertwined... the light brings up the darkness for us to resolve and the darkness releases entrapped light. What if it is really not that complicated and I just need to allow the polarities within us do their dance? Until there are none, until there is only stillness and infinite space? I've noticed before how opposites collapse upon each other, and perhaps it is no news for many, but somehow a deeper realization just hit me and it makes me want to laugh hard. Jenny, you are such an amazing mirror!

I read a bunch of poetry today and this is what wants to come out:

AT THE EDGE
Growth happens at the edge,
Right in between freedom and the cage.
I’ll let the current take me deep,
For this is exactly where I need to be.
Right into the abyss of despair,
Stay close, slow down, prepare...

LOST
I’ve lost myself yet again
The tears are flowing freely now.
I will envelope my disappointment
With compassion and tenderness
Make of it a warm coat
For my soul.

M