Dear Open ,

Here is an exploration I have been having since the Facilitator Conference started and I didn’t know quite where to put it ,so I will express here as it lends some continuity .

Since yesterday ,after the toning it felt like my entire energy system became discombobulated . When I felt into my heart space I am given to reflect on how having an over active compassion centre has impacted me in my 3-D and etheric relationships. no doubt this has been a reaction to the exact opposite that I embodied in many past lives .

In the 3D ,it has meant being drawn to the exact opposite - people with under active hearts . And I could sit and blame until the cows came home but really ,its a perfect match to my own energetically.Also ,given what I do ,if I veer into over-compassion and lose my centre as I try and fix a situation I am probably a rather delicious energy meal. On the 4D plane I am seeing how I am being interfered with especially as my energy and capacity increase. (Probably something that has happened to many facilitators in the past-some much more well versed with the field than I am ). Something or some energies are pulling me out in the guise of getting solutions and answers( why does the torus need solutions ?) ,and I am seeing how that route is rife with intervention.

In my own life thus far ,I have avoided this conundrum( of identity?) by completely shutting down my capacities ,further allowing myself to be waylaid in the 3D as this meant I was out of touch with my worth and true self. My small self has reverted to being safe and small and invisible in the simulation .

I suspect yesterday after the toning I was shaken out of this subconscious identity . And hence it feels like I am starting from scratch -feeling into who I am and what I feel to be moment by moment. I sense a restructuring of my heart space needs to happen ( or is underway) as I am seeing this .It feels very confusing as I am feeling like certain well entrenched patterns are suddenly offline and I am not sure of how to proceed further.

I suspect this realization connects up into the karma of other groups but I feel to hold that enquiry and stay within my torus for now, as I don’t have the capacity to look further for now . Even this sharing feels extremely vulnerable and risky for some reason ,as if a part of me doesn’t want this dynamic exposed .

Today I am just going to colour and Be.

Reflections are welcome

Megha