Hey jen,

Its great that it was synchronistic for you jen. Thanks for the kind words. Warms my heart :) Honestly i like to be acknowledged as being honest because of the self judgement in being inauthentic myself. I just felt to google perfectionism and clutter and this came up. It really resonated for me and was surprising to find that perfectionism actually creates clutter and disorder. I also relates with looking for the perfect decision to land which postpones the simple steps which creates inertia and makes the difference. I was also seeing maybe its not perfectionism im looking for but arrangement/managing/order/effortlessness/effectiveness etc. And perfectionism is a distortion of these qualities. I went ahead and did some of the simple things that i was postponing and felt really good about it. To me i think its the unrealistic expectation i have ,the feeling of not being good enough and what others think etc which is behind perfectionism. This is what i'm seeing most now and letting go of that feels very liberating - like a weight being lifted of my shoulders. I also resonated with her words how the okayness/acceptance of our imperfections empowers others to be vulnerable and be the same.

Its interesting im starting to see my reflections in this kid whom i have been 'teaching' for more than a year .His sister has autism and because of that his parents expects from him a great deal. And maybe because of this he tries so hard and get frustrated. And the very trying limits his authentic expression. I want to see him break free from this limitation and let go of my expectation and accept us both as exactly as we are! When i'm being empathic and compassionate to him i can be the same towards myself and remind myself to take it light and easy.

Vimal <3