thank you,
this came just at the right time to read this... explains partly what's going on here...

i'm cramped as a walnut at the same time feel infinitely vast -- the two simultaneously together, and i've been just feeling i'm on the verge of explosion...
literally

yes, and tightness in the abdomen and lots rage, but mostly the nervous impatience of the moments right before the release....
i could do with a bit of supporting OH community right now and let out a shattering scream... ;-)
and i1ll put in some good music to dance it outa my system ;-)

amazing that after aaaaall this time i still manage to miss the point...
i suppose the "disguise" is getting ever more subtle as well, and as i work with it... well, so much more work still to be done...

love to you all there now that youre gathering
and full mooooon, think of me ;-)
love Réka