okay, did you hear me??? :-D and i'm still not quite "finished" (haha)... just sharing now... and i don't know if it's only me but this particular song and its lyrics ("putting on a show, all these highs and lows" -- double entendre) link strongly to what you're saying here, just form another angle... it really eases me at the moment, brings all the warrior i've got outa me... haaa! :-) You're a fraud and you know it But it's too good to throw it all away Anyone would do the same You've got 'em going And you're careful not to show it Sometimes you even fool yourself a bit It's like magic But it's always been a smoke and mirrors game Anyone would do the same So now that you've arrived well you wonder What is it that you've done to make the grade And should you do the same? (Is that too easy?) Are you only trying to please them (Will they see then?) You're desperate to deliver Anything that could give you A sense of reassurance When you look in the mirror Such highs and lows You put on quite a show All these highs and lows And you're never really sure What you do it for Well do you even want to know? You put on quite a show (Mother) Are you watching? Are you watching? (Mother) Are you watching? (Mother) You're a fraud and you know it And every night and day you take the stage And it always entertains You're giving pleasure And that's admirable, you tell yourself And so you'd gladly sell yourself To others