Hi there fellow travellers,

Well finally I see what has been happening to me. For a long time now as soon as I wake I feel this grey yukky feeling like all is lost, abandoned and hopeless and no motivation to do anything. Yet i push on and realize I contract against this feeling and want to distract from it. Anything to not FEEL it.

I have pondered on the reasons for this for ages and finally its clicked! tadah! ding!

I see that it is probably the greys doing their thing in my field.

When I read about how they have been disconnected from source, feel lost and abandoned, I was so overcome with sadness and a deep compassion I wept and felt a profound urge to help them reconnect. They are just doing what they do, like we all do in our lives, not realizing the impact and fruitlesness of this way of being. I have a much greater understanding from reading everyone's responses, Divinicus and want to learn to sit with the feelings and become one and hopefully I can help myself and them in my journey back to source.

Thankyou to all in this beautiful community who share and reflect. I have been greatly encouraged by you.

hugs to all across the ether

Love Zee : )

Here's a poem about it:

The Grey

Before I open my eyes I feel you

a lion with its prey

helpless in your grasp

can't think, can't see, powerless

finanally I see after all this time

I must not run or hide, but embrace you

look you in the face and know

you are not 'me'

Step through the doorway before me

to freedom.

ej 30.10.18