Marije, it's great that you are working through the density. I find a lot of parallel in our processes ,so I'm right there with you!

I feel that i didn't offer a balanced view with my previous post. Whilst it is important to accept and be with the depression and disconnection i think its also essential to look for commitment and will to find the light through the density. After the post i was feeling a lot of tightness and negativity and didn't even want to get out from bed or go to work. And just being with it i was sliding into more negativity and addictive habits. When enough was enough a a short yoga session helped me to let go and find the lightness. So yes i think a fine balance is important. Today evening magically i got back my stylish helmet i lost almost a year back! Not sure what's that supposed to mean( reclaiming lost aspect of myself?). But that felt really synchronistic to my process.

Vimal