Hi Open,

thank you for your encouraging message and a wonderful video. I love how when I think I went through all the Openhand content (how naive!), there is always something new to discover. It's like library full of knowledge, every time you can find the most important personal message for the moment. Sincere appreciation for that.

You mention passion and commitment about my inquiring. Thank you for highlighting that, I have realised on my journey over the last year that inquiring is something I am very passionate about. Exploring to the core and asking questions (hence design and coaching). It really makes me joyful. Not always needing an answer/outcome or finishing an inquiry, just enjoying the process of it.

Inquiring deeper into passion and commitment, I came to a realisation there can be not only passion for the committed action/beingness but also passion for the act of commitment itself. Then the rigidity of discipline can dissolve and transform into a conscious process of passion and inquiry about oneself. Constantly changing and iterating. Word 'rhythm' that you mentioned expresses it appropriately for me.

You said I know on a soul level when I stray from the right action and I can very well notice that with my procrastination. It might have felt good procrastinating in the past but now it just feels plain bad. No benefit at all. At least for the soul, there have to be some benefit for the ego, an attachment. And that's where perfectionism comes to the stage. I feel that procrastinating the right action is a fear of failure, disappointment, not being good enough. Perfection is a big one for me - thank you for shining light in that direction. I noticed it's connected to self-worth and a need for validation from others. That's where for example these 'public' inquiries offer me a great help in self-realisation. For example, I am making sure my comments are flawless before posting, so I can appear in the best light. And then procrastinating on finishing them, either moving to something less uncomfortable or being unable to focus on the activity, doing different things around, getting distracted - so I avoid the pain of committed action. Happens quite often in my life but now I understand it a bit better.

I should rather stop for now here as I'm hitting my English and mind limits with this deep digging:) Sincere thanks for everything and wishing you all a wonderful rest of the retreat.

Dominik