Fantastic exploration Open.
Trinity your gentle loving response warms my heart.

Catherine... Thank you for finding words for that internal conflict as I have felt that as well. For me it occurs when I zoom in to 3d and a more primitive (reptilian) emotionally charged response is expressed when I am identifying with the larger coagulated bits in the Quantum soup. Often it's when I would chose to feel offended, hurt, or angry within a situation. Back to the battle... Ray1. While it's effective in that moment the ripples sent out then back in feel disruptive to my soul. Its just a short term fix. It's definitely a cycle I had to break. That's where the softening Ray2 comes in or Ray4 the diplomat. It feels that once I allow that initial response to ripple through me it breaks down the coagulated bits that become gelatinous where I then did not identify with. Zooming out and seeing it from a cosmic or soul perspective allows soul to flow through where humor of it all brings me to a more open place. Then I can see the situation with more clarity Ray5 shines with universal truths as I become aware of the co creation occurring. and thus find the aspect of my soul that was being concealed within the Quantum soup. For quite awhile I was just the spoon stirring it all up, identifying, relating or being a master at rationalizing intellectually.
I would get a taste of Ray 7 when the synchronic experiences illuminated. So divine... Then I allowed the initial energetic response to spike in moments. It happened over and over going through this process and each time I would accelerate through it faster until I was able to just feel it all. No expectation no intention more aware with attention. Why would I allow anything less became an illuminating question.. Ray 6 shining and reflecting with inspiration to allow light to shine out.

Divine forgiveness as I see this 3d world as a playground for souls. Here to learn, to grow, to experience the restraints of the physicality which all are predisposed to in this human form. It's all part of the Quantum soup recipe/ equation.