Hi Faye - don't worry about posting plenty - consider yourself a part of the 'family'.

A few points jump right out...
- firstly when you're 'sending love out to your ex partners', do make sure you're dissolving their energy and bringing the love back inside of you, like a loop, or else you'll deplete your energy, not build it up.
- there are two stages to becoming awesomely okay with something and finding alignment: empowering yourself as the One; then working to align the energy. Empowering yourself as the One, means totally accepting things as they are without needing to change them. So 'giving love to something' is not accepting it as it is. There's a tendency to try to change it. We must truly accept it as it is in the beginning - only then breathe love through it.
- I sense at the core of the black cloud is the emptiness of presence. Let's be clear, presence is NOT love. It is pure "isness". That's who we are at the core of everything. My sense is that the ego doesn't like this presence and so forms the clouds around it. So work to completely accept without changing or needing it to go away. When you've accepted it, then breathe light through it.
- with the sexual energy, it is very close to activated kundalini in vibration. Try expressing the energy into creativity, or giving it out into nature for example. And there's nothing wrong at all with being intimate with yourself. It's a very evolving practice when done in a sensual loving way.

I think you'd greatly benefit by attending an Openhand gathering - we'll be listing the autumn events soon. See if you resonate to come along.

Sending love

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