Dearest Helen,
Honestly... I'd very happily go and hide a little in the etheric embrace of that deep, motherly energy that you, knowingly or not omit, like a flower its scent, a beautiful attractiveness, a velvety magnetism which to me feels so much more than radiance..
What power in the softness you have! I hope you know that.

Your comment about all men disappearing from a space where I (or my energy) appears is a great "button pusher", and I thank you for bringing it up.

Though this yin vacuum, a strange gravitational force continuously changing the field around me has been very deep part of the exploration of these past weeks -- it's more than a momentary story, actually... It's been a theme in my life... A strong one. It feels like a strength I continuously need to monitor, learn to live with so as not to become "too much" for others. It's like if I only open up my deep self, if I only behave naturally and I am who I am -- there's stunned silence around and it is a heavy karma to live with. So normally, I hide. In my real life I live quite like a hermit.

But it's humbling, deeply touching when a Sister soul is able to see --- its light as much as its dark, and challenges.

You're in my heart!
<3
R